The 1st day of the last month 2009

Finally... the last month of 2009!!! going to step in year 2010.. another brand new year~Oh yeah!!! and I've been asking myself..what did i done for my whole year 2009?? and the answer is NOTHING!! good job! LOL~~ shit..I'm so fucking useless!!! So i was thinking should make my life more meaningful?? Yes i should.. Hmmm.. I'm gonna work for 2jobs in my life now!! Less clubbing and drink! More sports and shopping..hahahha... and i made up my mind.. here come my new life new plan:

Monday: Badminton
Tuesday:Swimming
Wednesday: Off Day
Thursday: Swimming
Friday,Saturday: Off Day
Sunday: Massage/Hiking

Hope I really can make it.. LOL~ I must have a meaningful life now..so I hope i wont disappointed myself.. hehe...Gambateh LING!!!! U can make it!!! Let those ppl fall down their spectacles!!

Love Quote ♥ ♥ ♥

"If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you made me smile,
I would have the whole night sky in the palm of my hand."

The Special One

Been prepare those present for the someone special quite long time ago... And finally... i finish knitted!!! But abit disappointed of my handwork..looks like not perfect as i wish... But when i handed the present to him.. He was so surprising!! and he said nice... Cause of I'm not around on his birthday..so I've been prepare another surprise for him.. =) As i promise I'll baked him a birthday cake..but at last i cant make it cause of some problems. Happy birthday to him... So I'll just drive to his place in the raining night..Hoping he will love the present i gave it him... =) And i reach... Handed the present by my own to him.. And he says: thanks alot.. While looking at his present...

He: Nice wrapping... Don't wish to tear it..

Me: Its just a box.. No need to tear it.. hahaha..just open it..LOL!!

He : What a cute card!!! So special..and the bear exactly looks like u...

Me: hahahahah~~dark circle as dark as mine? LOL!!

Taaaddaaaahhhhh~~~Here's the present for him!!

He: Nice nice!!!Thank u very much...

Me: U like the colour?

He: yaya!! nice colour...Appreciate it much!

*He said he got the most special present for his birthday.. =) Hope he really like it!

Another surprise for him while I'm not around.. XD this card will along with his birthday cake.. And the cakes picture is not with me..I'll go to his page and copy down.. hehe...

End up,he promised me that he will bring me for ****** But until now...he never mention about it anymore.. =( Might be he busying with his works.. So I'll just wait for the miracle to appear.. =)

心碎。。。

当我以为有希望时。。你就好像拿着一杯冷水倒在我的头上，让我醒一醒来。。。我忠觉得你对我是不一样的。。为什么你就是不敢走多一步呢？？？好累哦~~ 难道我做的还不够好吗？还是不够多呢？还不能得到你的心吗？我该做些什么呢？你心里到底在想什么？？我们的年龄吗？还是我们的。。。haih~~我忠是不知道是什么原因！！！朋友说该放弃了。。我就是不愿放！！因为你给我的感觉是不一样的。。人常说被爱是幸福的。。你觉得你幸福吗？因为我在你背后爱着你。。。


ps: correct me if the words wrong yea..still in learning of mandarin.. :)

Frustrated!!!

What am i now?!! I don't even know it! I felt frust!I felt tired!I felt being betrayed! I'm a fool..been foolish by U!!! But i know i'm not qualified to angry neither u both..because I'm nothing..But i just don't understand why! why! why!!! Cause you know the truth from me..but you did the same things as last time u done!! I'm so tired...I never hope our relation change because of this person..I need time and space.. Let me breath deeply~

Feelings

Never thought of what u was thinking,
Never thought of what u was searching,
Never thought of what u was hiding,
Never thought of what is your feeling.

I've been trying to get closer to your heart...but I never successful to reach now but I never give to up reach it too...Its been so long we known each other but never been so close within this year. We had been for outing many times although with a few friends but I felt satisfied.. Am I too easy to satisfied? Yes I am.. I never hope to much..Just hope to get closer and being fun with you..That's all I wish.. especially when you smile brightly,I just love it! =) Whenever u rang me..I just felt warm..really..it makes my day colourful.. Although just a short call.. I'm enough happy.I love to share all your happiness or sadness..I always wish to be your side..to support you..no matter what u was facing..I hope I do helps u when I'd been your listener.I've been clicked to you..How about you?? I never know what am I to you..sister?best friend?lover? I'm just waiting for this answer..Sometimes i was thinking is it..

I'm not good enough?
I'm not the one you searching/looking for so many years?
I'm not enough mature?
I'm not enough caring?
or I'm not the one you can fall in love?? *sigh*

Alive

*poof* been away from blogging for 3months and I'm back!! haha... within this 3 months I'm so enjoying my single life until no time to blog.. :P now only i realise that luckily I'm not late to enjoy my single life at age 23..hahaha...but enjoying too much this single life will die faster... because.. spend alot!! drink alot!! sleep late!! oh GOSH!! my skin,face and the most important my purse is burnt! @.@ skin getting more dry than last time..face looks more older and dark circle is exactly look like a smoky eyes make up which is permanent to me now..so start from now on..I'm going to enjoy my life too but not as much as last time.. time to behave.. :P think for future! I'm gonna have a healthy single life now..hehe~ how healthy? eat healthy,sleep earlier and of course 8hours for everyday(if i can make it) and lastly for sure exercise is the most important.. going to noted down my schedule from onwards! +U+U~~~